Days like these are the ones that I would much rather be spending alone in a room with a few movies and junk food. Sadly, I didn’t get that oppurtunity. Since it has been the holidays, I’ve been around my mother and father 24/7. Wether it is eating dinner or being forced to play cheesy board games, time to myself has only been in my sleep. Speaking of which, my sleeping patterns have been awfully strange.

I think what has caused my dreams to be different is that I have been starting to sleep with a heating blanket. Now, I don’t really know who heat correlates with dreams, but it does for me, nonetheless. I have noticed that I confuse my dreams with reality much more often than I used to. It seems that everytime I wake up from a dream I am very disoriented as to why I am in bed. I also have realized that I have woken up to my big toe nail being in pain. It feels like I have bent my nail backwards ,but after an hour or so, the pain goes away completely. How odd. I feel like the heating blanket has taken over my sleeping patterns entirely.

I have been watching a couple of Audrey Hepburn movies this break. Probably because I got a box set of hers for Christmas. I have watched Sabrina and Breakfast at Tiffany’s. (My All Time Favorite), but I haven’t watched a Roman Holiday quite yet. Sadly, I haven’t been able to watch any of these movies alone because my mother wanted to watch them with me. I prefer to watch movies alone because I feel that I get more involved with them. Which makes sense, right? I guess I will just have to re-watch them when no one is home, which has been NEVER recently. In Breakfast at Tiffany’s, I want to be just like Holly. I know, how cliche of me. But, it’s true! Her personality is the most perfect mix of complexity, intellect and quirkiness I have ever seen. It makes me jealous, honestly, and I wish I could be just like her. Not Audrey, but Holly. I want to spend a day doing all different things that I have never done before, and I want to have a cat named Cat, and I want to enjoy my life without ever worrying about the consequences. Sadly, I feel like this feeling won’t last until morning. Pity, really. I want to feel like this all the time. Maybe I would be happier.

-D.